It's been quite some time since I last wrote anything here. Hell, it's been some time since I last wrote anything. Or filmed anything. Or even thought about filming anything. It's been a...strange time. I've been up to a lot of things, but I'll get to that later. The point of this post is to let anyone who cares know that I'm still here, and I'm still making videos, even if it's at a slower pace than before. Like, a lot slower. But that doesn't mean I've been slacking off. I've been busy. Wanna hear about it?
What I've been up to
I started to drop hints and mention it before, but I've been working on a new "project" for the better part of the last year. The first step was releasing an app called Bit Buddy, which allowed creative professionals and content creators to manage their external hard drives and SSDs, among other things. It's been a wild ride, and I've learned a lot about software development, and I learned something about myself in the process.
I learned that I truly love working on software and software development. For those who know me, this will probably come as a huge surprise, especially since I've never been vocal about this sort of thing. But it's true. And I can't think of anything, at least not currently, that I've been enjoying more. It's been an incredibly rewarding experience, and I haven't even done much!
Unfortunately, this has meant me having to delegate my time, and simply put, I have no idea what I'm doing when it comes to this stuff. I still don't even really know what I'm doing with video work/editing, but I at least have a routine and know how to make something. With the development work, I'm essentially starting over. I'm learning the language, what I can and can't do, and navigating this new world. It's fun, but it's a lot, and it's been taking up a lot of my time.
The crisis
Making movies and videos has been my dream for as long as I can remember. It's been the core obsession in my life. Over the past year+, that dream has started to fade. I've started various projects, but they've all gone unfinished. Some of them I've even started to forget about. It's been a weird feeling. For me, I never once thought that anything other than making movies was in the cards for me. Now, I'm not so sure.
Working on Bit Buddy, and my other apps/projects, helped get me out of the rut I was in. But in doing so, I started to forget about the dream. I started to forget about the passion. I started to forget about the love for movies and filmmaking.
What I'm going to do
I'm still not sure. I'm still trying to figure this shit out. I do know that I don't want to give up on making movies. Not yet, anyway. But I also don't want to lose this newfound passion for creating in a new medium. I'm going to have to figure out a way to balance the two.
I was lucky enough to secure an invitation to WWDC 2025, and you bet your ass I'll be there. I'm also going to using this time to figure out what I want to do. If this filmmaking passion is still there, or if I've truly moved on. I've got a lot of thinking to do, and I'll be filming the entire journey.
For those who are interested, I'll be posting updates here and on my Instagram. So, if you're curious about what I'm up to, or just want to see the journey, follow along. And be sure to stay locked on the Sparrow Films YouTube for the film.